The Way A Toy Feels
Intro
I consider cancer a thief; I miss your tracked veins lying next to me
By the end, I could barely see your eyes; they were covered by starry images inside
If you weren’t lighting up your headaches were nowhere near fine
The cringe of the filter and its last puff were always the first things on your mind
The fine print on the label was the first warning
My last memories from the hospital are your monitors, tick, tock, going
Verse
I don’t believe in fairy tales; I don’t believe you’re better off
All those pretty pills you found, were they easier coming up or down?
Ever since your last breath, I never touched another cigarette
The black they stained on my lungs, traveled right down to the bottom of my heart
God made sin so we might know his mercy; I can still feel you battling inside me
Chorus
I should have known that things never go as planned
But I can’t help feeling like God’s an extortionist
And took you away when we couldn’t meet his demands
And even though up on the silver screen they play
You can’t wrap your arms around those memories
Because everything you love eventually fades away
Verse 2
What you steal will never mean half as much as what you own
So why bother taking her frail remains at only 26 years old
Were her lungs that bad, was her heart that dark
Was your mighty staff that hungry for some form of punishment?
Or did your large eyes blink too fast,
Does it not matter to you that she’ll never hear her daughter’s first laugh?
Bridge
I could’ve sworn you had circles of powder forming around your eyes
You were high for weeks at a time
And you begged and begged for me to give you mine
But I couldn’t watch you do more lines
I just couldn’t watch you do more lines
You were doing lines all the time
Chorus
I should have known that things never go as planned
But I can’t help feeling like God’s an extortionist
And took you away when we couldn’t meet his demands
And even though up on the silver screen they play
You can’t wrap your arms around those memories
Because everything you love eventually fades away
Outro
The doctors were drawing straws
Pleading to each other that the other deserved to tell me more
But letting go is so much easier when you have some sign of hope
And even though up on the silver screen they play
You can’t wrap your arms around those memories
Because everything you love eventually fades away
